Holla everyone! How are you 'ol doing? Don't ask me how am I doing because obviously I'm not ( which here I'm going to blame the financial crisis for all this. I'm running dry! For God's sake Alviana, stop all this! Adehh...). Right, want to know why the title of the post? Remember my 13 2010 resolutions? Ahah. If you remember, that's good. If you don't, that's even better. 'Cause i dont even hope you to remember any of my posts ponn. Kejam kann? Hahahah.

Well, really want to know why?

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I won't tell. Face it. I'm gonna tell you.

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Alright, alright. I give up. Here's the list. Check out yo!

*stomach growling*...aiya...havent eaten anything d whole day. i better go for something first. just you wait. adehh...

...*gone eating something; terribly hungry smpai wan 2 makan org dy*...

1930 hrs...

Hurrahh!!! I've eaten my breakfast + lunch + dinner (3-in-1 meal)...at last, I'm full! *growl* No, no. Seriously, I cannot eat anymore. Sudalaa teda duit, mo juga makan banyak2. Adehh. *sigh*...

2010 resolution. It's almost February, yet I still want to talk about my resolution. As I've said before, I haven't think about my resolution yet. But today,...*tadaa!*...check out my list yo!

That's how the title sounds. I choose not to choose. I posted in my facebook, 'it's better to remain silent rather than being a dumbo beating around the bush'. Forget your intention of knowing what's going on. Just focus on whatevery you are doing. Do I look like I have something to tell you?

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=.=' Face it. I'm not gonna tell you.

I'd rather remain silent, because like what I told Fong this morning, some things are better left unsaid. Yes, there are some things that are better left unsaid. (Don't worry, Fong and I are just talking about my sewing kit. Nothing else. There are some things that I better keep it to myself, though it hurts me deep within T.T)

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=.=' I feel homesick right now.

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=.=' I want my sayang to be beside me, especially at this kind of time. I NEED him.

I just so love listening to Alex Grant's piano instruments! It's very de soothing...and really lully me to sleep. Whoa! Heheh.. Believe me, I never liked piano instrumentals before. I started to like these kinds of musicales after listening to Kenny G's saxophone instrumentals. Really lully me to sleep, trust me. How I wish my sayang's here to lay beside me and lully me to sleep as well. It's three in the morning and I can't even sleep. Maybe it's because I had been sleeping yesterday until 12 in the afternoon and back to sleep again at 6pm and woke up again at 9?? Have I turn nocturnal??? haiz... I need to do something about this~~

I havent tell anyone about my blog new look, right? Well, I don't have to because...let's just say that I want to keep it to myself. And of course, for my sayang to have a look. Heheh. I never celebrated my 1st anniversary with my blog; instead I went to celebrate the 1st yr anniversary with my sayang at CP! Hahaha! Well, very de sorry blog, but I promise this year I'll celebrate with u k? After all, we have each other now. Heheh. I'll save all the wishings for next edition. Just be patient, alright? Mwahhxx for ya!!

Anyways, TADAAAA!!! After two nights..or more, perhaps...horrible makeovers for my dearie Miss Blog... hehe, sorry for that =.=" So after transforming from an ugly duckling to a beautiful swan *ahem!*, are you still mad at me? Hehehe....

Two days I did not sleep. Just because of the assignment. Is it because I worked so hard for the assignment, or is it that I've been movie-marathon-ing for the past few days before I start doing the assignment? Argh, the meeting will start soon. By all means, I have to attend. Or was it that I choose to attend in spite of the choice I have, which eventually I could choose not to attend because I am in sick motion right now? Huh!!! Well, I have no choice but to follow the bureaucracy. Life's just like that, and yes, it's unfair... and yes, it's unfair because people who are far healthier than me choose not to go for the meeting. Screw me!

Urgh...laying back on the bed, I can't help much but to reminiscing back all the schweet memories I had with my sayang back in KK before. When I was down, he will cheer me up, bawak me makan2 everytime I go wild (because that's the obvious symptoms when I am hungry...and I cant help it but to cari kedai makan everytime I went out with him ) haiz...but still, he layan ja...I wonder how he can be that patient anyway? Gaduh2 pn definitely wont be that long. After a short period of time, we definitely will be okay dy...as if nothing had happened before that's y i sayang him very2 de mucho..ROFL!!! But seriously, I really, really, really, really SAYANG him and for sure I will stress on the word REALLY if there's anyone who doubted me. Hehehe...

Damn to all this lag! Lebih2 lg when I'm in my blogging mode. I just so hate it. I wonder why, but I just don't even want to know. My sickness motion really, really held me back. All the bad moods swarm around me once again. I dont feel any happier. I dont feel any more comfortable. I dont feel any satisfaction. All that I can feel now is doomed, doomed, and... =.=' doomed. I am sad. I cant help much but to feel sad. Really, I blamed my assignments for this. I've had enough. Why cant I just do it on my way? Why must I follow certain ways of other people? Why must there be a sense of perfection inside everyone? I'm doomed, really. My sickness motions held me back, letting me down. My assignment marks really let me down. I'm doomed. Again, I feel I'm doomed. Hurrah, maybe this is a winning point for you outside there, but believe be, I will never give up. This may be is not my day. Just so you know, I will never let it go easily. You think you are prettier? I'm far more PRETTIER than you. Blah!

=.=" I want my happiness back.

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=.=" I want my sunshine back.

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=.=" I want my sayang to be beside me, always.

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=.=" I want my lollipop to cheer me up, like always. It's been hard since the day we separated far apart by the seven seas.

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=.=" I want my besties to be with me, like before, giving me strength. Like always. Miss you all so much darls.

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=.=" haiz...*curls back and tuck self under the comfy duvet*...zZzZz...

Seriously, this was the first time ever that I worked really hard on an assignment given by any lecturers. (if it were truly counted, I was only procrastinating few days back when I sounded as if I wanted to started, and yes, I had just pushed my efforts starting yesterday. But still, it was far much better than before, which I think I only started few hours before I handed in my assignment ^^ *clap!!!*) Half an hour before the class starts, and yet I'm still in front of the laptop, blogging. Yes, once again, procrastination wins. When will I ever be as hardworking as before? I need my motivation. Or, maybe I dont even need any force motivation at all. All I need is just the perfect timing and hey presto! Everything comes back into its own place. Sounds like magical *winking*

I stared long enough at my white babydoll dress. And look outside the window. Looks like it's going to rain soon. But I really had planned to wear this dress to the class. To be honest, it was not really a dress anyway. Or, is it? Looks like one. Just that it's short and cute. Yeah, It's cute ^^ Well, less than half an hour left, so I just grab it and wear it. Nothing matters. After all, I will be wearing it under my purple Cheetah jumper, anyway. Looks like sucks, believe me. Well, it's not a day for me to dress up and show the whole world, so why do I need to care how I dress?

Next, my watch. Which one suits my outfit today, the blue one or the pink one? The blue one looks bigger, while the pink one looks cuter. Well, since I'm wearing a purple Cheetah jumper today, I'll take the pink watch instead. Fits perfectly. *Smirks* Well, time to ready my mind for the next two hours class. Tadaa...off to the class!!^^

I was doing my TELC03 assignment when suddenly my stomach growled...for sure, asking for food. Hahah. I hesitated in the beginning, so I drank a hot cuppa coffee. Erm, trust me,it wasn't nice as I expected. I missed Malaysian coffee. Huhu. Or was it the coffee made by people close enough with me and that's why I treasured the memories of drinking coffee when it's only an ORDINARY coffee? Hurraahh!! ^^ Still, my mouth craved for something. Something to chew. Urgh... I need FOOD. Please!!!!

Suddenly Ika (bukan nama sebenar) said her stomach was growling as well, asking for FOOD. Again, I sighed. What did she craved for? BURGER!!!! Simpler food? FRIES!!! Heavier than I expected. I want something light, yet satisfying. Urgh... FOOD...my mind seemed not to function properly now. FOOD, please!!!!

"Kalo Ika habes bwat caimen mlm nih, besok nak mkn Zaytoon..." that was the only thing I heard from Ika. In my mind, I thought of scaring her again using Long Khong (hahahah!!!) xpe...tonight I dont think I will disturb anyone's mood. Everyone's giving their best shot to complete the ehem...ehem...what should i say about this assignment? Hectic? Kot..heheh... yea,trust me, almost everyone's in front of the laptop.. typing the commentary plus obviously doing other stuff (e.g. Youtube-ing, Fesbuk-ing, blogging...like me!! Ehem2...it's half past 11...and I need to get back to my unfinished task!!! *growl*...erks...hunger strikes again...

I walked and walked, reaching for the fridge. Hurraahhh... I can feel the aura of FOOD!!! And as I open the fridge...teheheh...*evil laugh*... I can see...bread and butter!!! And as I continue to type my brilliant idea into my commentary, I munched the bread with the butter spreaded on it...with satisfaction. Yes, and I feel no more hunger. FOOD wins again!!!^^

Well, after some time, I think I should change the look of my blog, for once and for all (which I believe that I will eventually change the layout again..but not so soon ^^). Of course I still maintain on the pink colour as the main focus of the blog, but this time I want it to be white as the background. Unlike the previous ones (black slash pale pink, I guess *scratch2*...), I think for the time being I'll stick to this one. Yezza! Friends, behold...this is the new look of my blog. Yehhaaww!!~~ *crap*...it's almost 1 in the morning. Better off to sleep. Gdnite everyone! *Assignment is torturing me...urgh...*faints*...*

Friends? What are FRIENDS? What is the definition for FRIENDS? Well, FRIENDS literally means a person known well to another and regarded by liking, affection, and loyalty (Collins English Dictionary & Thesaurus, 2006). Hurm...when your friends are happy...