aurelia alviana Fedora
We had a good meal, we played card games, they played Cranium while I was busy reading my blog comments and yada..yada..and the list goes on.

I came back from the birthday bash nearly midnight, and I don't even have the slightest idea why did I login on my Yahoo Messenger. For God's sake. Am I half-asleep or half awake? Something caught my attention. An offline message. From someone I know. Someone dear to my heart. But not anymore. Not till today.

Why today? Because I came to my own *kesedaran* while playing card games just now; suddenly I said to myself, to like something doesn't mean that you will own something. It's just that to like something is merely a feeling that you like, and that's it. Like and only like. Not more, not less.

I like handbags. I like wedges. I like beautiful dresses. But that doesn't mean I can own everything. Unless I make sacrifices - take the four month allowances, for instance. I would have to think between a handbag and a one-week dinner. So, to sacrifice, if I want to buy a handbag, I would have to sacrifice my one week dinner. Is that worth it? Unless you come from a filthy rich family, perhaps one day you will consider thinking like me. You will. Just not yet :)

Enough with the nonsence talking and midnight blabbering, now off to bed. Goodnight peeps. *yawn*

-nukilan al yang chantek ahakz :P-
aurelia alviana Fedora
I looked happy from the outside. I looked occupied. I seemed to be enjoying my life to the fullest. But, does that really showing the real me???

I had never been a happy girl. I had been badly hurt inside. But, who cares? All other people care is their pride. And all I can do is to pour out my tears, thinking why all these should happen to me.

I learn to be a tough girl. And I am. Still. In my effort. To be tougher and tougher each day. And I know, I will, soon.

-nukilan al yang chantek ahakz :P-
aurelia alviana Fedora
Since I've read Clare's blog on this, I have a deep thought about this and I said to myself, why not I do the same thing as well? Well, these are the elements in my life that I've been very thankful for God has given them to me. I heart u all :)

1. Mummy and daddy

I'm the eldest in the family and that makes me the most pampered one, theoretically. Yes, it was, for a while before I had three younger ones, stealing my limelight! D'ohh! Joking2 :P Still, I felt grateful for having my mum and my dad as my parents (tho they're strict to the four of us. Ohh yess, I believe that one of the reasons they're being 'dictatorous' *does this word exist??* is that their children are all girls and we need to be attended to so that we won't go astray!!! So dramatic. Hahaha. Trust me, I really felt grateful for if they're not being strict to me before, I won't be where I am today. Thank you, mummy and daddy :) *sob2. tharu kejap.okes,habis drama*

2. My sisters

We can be crazy sometimes. We can be cranky at times. But for sure, we are always being supportive towards each other. Sisters for life! Of course, I love them :) I admit, I am not a good sister. Why? 1) I alws make fun of the 2nd one since she's the shortest among us four. By patting her head. Jahat kan? That's so me :) 2) I used to order my 3rd sister to do most of the chores in the house since she's the one yang paling xpndai membantah. She's the most obedient one. She never asks anything from our parents, even just for a new pair of white shoes. Note to self: no orders for her anymore. :P 3) I always think that even tho the youngest is the youngest, the treatment should be fair and equal. I once was quite crossed when my parents sort of being lenient to my 4th sister. But then, come to think of it; I am not in the house anymore, my second sister's now in UM, and my 3rd sister's gonna finish her secondary education this year. So, I guess that I should let her be my parent's doll. BIarlaa ba. Budak kicik ja pn. p/s: She's thirteen this year, but her body size's like a nine year old. Kurus je lebih. Cam lidi. My bad :P

3. My circle of friends.

I was away from home since the age of thirteen. My friends are like my second family. Be it in the secondary school (I was a boarder; I'm an alumni of SM Sains Miri), matriculation (2 months plus in Labuan Matriculation College is not a short period of time),in the teacher training institute (Gaya Teacher Training Institute 2007-2009), or in Marjons (here I am now!) I met lots and lots of friends. To be really, really far away from home is not as easy as I thought. The things e.g. my working life etc. really bugs my thought and it really makes me feel sad for being faraway from my family. That's where I feel that the presence of friends are to be valued. Thanks pals, be it dudes or babes, you all are dearest to my heart. Love you all :)

4. Chenta Hati Saya <3

I'm being grateful for him to be beside me and to stand by me through thick and thin for the past two years and how-many-months. In short, it has been almost three years we've gone out together :) Schweetttt! *Joking!!!* I miss his cranky-ness, I miss his craziness, I miss everything about him. We've been through a lot just to maintain our relationship and I never expect it to be this far. I pray may he'll be happy with me though I may not be the best life partner, but I'll try my best to make him happy to be beside me and to make him realise that I'm truly for him. Yes, I may have been a bit cheeky and a bit naughty at times (of course! I never can be a goody goody girl! That's so not me!) but I just want him to realise that I just can't change that over a night. That's so not me. I think he understands me better now. Forgive me for being not good e.g. being so-called queen control, i guess. I'll never force you to do my way again. Love you so much, honeybee :)

How about you out there? Care to share your gratitude journal as well? :)

-nukilan al yang chantek ahakz :P-
aurelia alviana Fedora
1. Saya nak banyak baju cantik. Hehehe :)

2. Saya nak jelajah sebanyak mana tempat yang boleh g sebelum blah dr UK...
haha. at least I've been to Bath, Bristol, Manchester, Newcastle, Nottingham, Edinburgh, Glasgow, France, Italy, Swiss, passed by Austria, Germany, Holland, Amsterdam, and Brugges (Belgium). not bad! nak tambah lagi, for sure! ongkosnya jangan lupa kawal ye..huhuhuhu~

3. A leather belt for daddy

4. Another new mobile phone! For the how-many-times-I-have-lost-track-I-wanna-change-my-phone times, I wanna new phone! AGAIN! Surprise :)
hahaha :)

5. Something for mummy. Can't decide yet.
how abt this one? mummy loves high heels..*still thinking*

6. Something for Neysa's birthday.
demand gila. nak Roxy jgak. haish.

7. Something for my birthday!! Soon people, soon :)
ooh, I can't take my eyes off of u bebeh!!

8. New sandals. Tho I just bought a new one not long ago from eBay. Ish3, buruk pnya perangai.
cool :)

9. Something for our anniversary. This year's the third year we've been together :) Heart you darling!
*p/s: ini rahsia..*alasan sbb xtau nak bg apa* hahaha~*

10. His graduation present. Which I haven't decide yet. Ohh. teruknya saya.
aurelia alviana Fedora
Greetings from the United Kingdom of England, Scotland, Wales and North Ireland!

I was blog-hopping as usual and I came across this blog and somehow I said to myself, instead of just killing the time by Facebook-ing and bloody yada..yada.. whatever the thing is, why don't I do stuffs? And so, here I am :)

Nama saya, seperti yang sedia maklum, Alviana Fedora dan saya sedang belajar dalam tahun kedua B.Ed (Hons) TESL di University College Plymouth St.Mark & St.John, Plymouth a.k.a Marjons. Xramai orang tahu tentang Marjons dan saya yakin, xramai tau di mana terletaknya Plymouth di dalam peta UK. Well, basically Plymouth is situated far in the south west of the UK (click here to view the map), in the county of Devon. Dah, cukup crita pasal Plymouth, kita bercerita pasal benda lain plak owhkay :)

Sweet times here in the UK: able to shop like hell and to travel around! Trust me, u hafta find some time to go and explore the world! Bila lagi nak ada pelang nak tengok tempat orang kalau bukan masa2 cmnie kan? I'm fortunate enuff to be given such chances by the government to study here :) Seriously!

Bad times: when people look at you as if u've done something wrong to them. Being called by names (in which people here love to label us as ORIENTALS) Not sure why, but trust me, this is INSANE. We endure with it considering that this is a place where you can see most locals around you (compare to big cities e.g. London, Nottingham, Manchester, Newcastle). So, peace!

We really had a great deal of time here :) Don't believe me?

during our 'jalan2' with our host families to Mount Wise

Malaysian Festival 2010

our trip to the Lost Garden of Heligan. A beautiful place, I must say :)

summer BBQ! *can't wait for it :)*

DeepaRaya 2010 :)

Old Trafford! Hoyeah :)

Glasgow. Wonderful city :)

This is a courtesy to the blog Blog Pilihan Malaysia since they give chances to bloggers wherever they are despite of the same interest - blogging to write about themselves, I reckon. Don't quote me owhkay. It's just a wild guess. Nevertheless, I like it, honestly.

I think that's it. Till then peeps, chaluu :)

-nukilan al yang chantek ahakz :P-
aurelia alviana Fedora
I spent almost half of the day moving things in my room, and then.. *ehemm!* ... let the pictures do the talkings :)

I wish not to say anything about this; I've posted it in Facebook, so I think why not I post it here as well?

Presenting... *drum rolls*... TADAAAA!

Welcome to my room, 16E, Student Village, UCP Marjon, Derriford Road, Plymouth PL6 8BH, United Kingdom!

my bed wif my luvly teddies!

from the mirror near the wash basin view

my study desk :)

the corner of my room. ignore the things on the shelf, i know it's girlish, but it's my nature as a girl, right?

the wash basin

my trench coat + handbag(s)

the door view

the view from the window

Till then peeps, bye!!!

-nukilan al yang chantek ahakz :P-
aurelia alviana Fedora
It wasn't as beautiful as I have expected. At least, I enjoyed it. Guilty pleasure, as what people would describe it. Ahaha. I was really tired, I meant it. Last Friday, I went to Exeter for my ambassador task - drama taster day at University of Exeter. One whole day - rushed after the bus, collect the train tickets 5 mins before the train leaves the platform, running up the hill to find that actually I was just in time and were not late (ouch!) - full of going here and there and walking under the rain, it's an experience that's indescribable. I like it, though at the end of the day the three of us - me, Puvana and Zureen - suffer due to headache caused by walking under the rain! :)

Saturday - my first day working at the sport centre. Mann, it's huge! Massive! Four hours given to clean whole place, and the work force is only two?? That's what people nowadays call as CHALLENGE. Lols. Anyway, I enjoyed the other half of the day sitting in my room, reading books for the assignment, drafting, resting, napping and *ehem!* let me keep the rest of the story to myself. Hee :)

Sunday - work again. I was frustrated by the fact that I couldn't stay longer and have a Sunday break with my church mates (they are awesome!!) and yes, for the famous reason - I'm not done yet with my assignment. Sorry peeps! We'll hang out next week. I promise that *pinky promise* hahaha~ I really, really thanked God for being given such nice people to guide and grow together in faith. Seriously, I missed my church mates back in my hometown, but these people really know how to lessen my 'church'sick eyh?? Lols.

Now, back to my assignment. Sorry peeps, assignment comes first. I promise I will be back with more interesting stories. Till then, stay tuned!

notakaki: speak no evil, hear no evil, see no evil :)

-nukilan al yang chantek ahakz :P-
aurelia alviana Fedora
Hello everyone,

Seems like it's the first post in the year 2011 :) Ohh yeahh! My resolution? Hahaha. How many times should I talk about this? Just browse through the whole blog and you'll find about few posts mentioning my resolutions, again and again. *duhh!* Well, crack on!

Life's getting more and more hectic as the days pass by. Can't lie to you about this buddy. The moment I type this entry, I'm working on another assignment for ENGD17. Such a life, ain't it? Can't imagine how life would be from this point onwards. So, goodbye to holidays and say hello to the new term opening!

What else? This term I'll be having TELD01 - Grammar and Discourse for the Language Teacher and TELD03 - Language Across the Curriculum. Urgh. Grammar, grammar and grammar. Ohh, by the way, those people who borrow my grammar books, can I have mine back before the term reopens? Many thanks in advance. I might need those books some day :) And please, to others who borrow the seniors' books, do return them if you haven't, okay darlings?

What else? I think that's it. Till the next post, buhbye!

::speak no evil::hear no evil::see no evil::

Above all, I love my life :)