1.
I am unwell. Yes, I am. Still, I force myself strumming on the guitar and singing. SINGING!!! That's why I lost my voice now! Coughing hard, but I dont care. As long as I drink enough water, I should be fine. I guess.

Anyways, I was on the phone with some friends that I didn't meet for some time, and they just simply throw questions like...'when are you getting married???"...and I was speechless. Girls, I'm still 23 and I have a long journey ahead. I need some time to prepare myself. Refer to my post here. :)

*uhuk...uhuk*...i think I'll just shut up from this point and get some rest.

2.
I'm sorry. Maybe we're not meant to be. I can keep on asking for more time, but as I think, I began to notice that it's going to be the same thing - the thing that we feared all these while. It's just another maybe, but I can't keep standing on my toes and hurt you more and more...with everything that has happened between both of us?

I appreciate that. It's not just because you're too nice or what, it's just that you deserve someone much better than me.

I can ask from you all the time in the world, but all that I wish now is not to hurt you anymore.

I am sorry.


*crawls into the bed...crying softly hoping that people won't see how hurt I am deeply inside*
...genuinely comes from my heart and my brain, not from anywhere else unless stated...