1.
I am unwell. Yes, I am. Still, I force myself strumming on the guitar and singing. SINGING!!! That's why I lost my voice now! Coughing hard, but I dont care. As long as I drink enough water, I should be fine. I guess.

Anyways, I was on the phone with some friends that I didn't meet for some time, and they just simply throw questions like...'when are you getting married???"...and I was speechless. Girls, I'm still 23 and I have a long journey ahead. I need some time to prepare myself. Refer to my post here. :)

*uhuk...uhuk*...i think I'll just shut up from this point and get some rest.

2.
I'm sorry. Maybe we're not meant to be. I can keep on asking for more time, but as I think, I began to notice that it's going to be the same thing - the thing that we feared all these while. It's just another maybe, but I can't keep standing on my toes and hurt you more and more...with everything that has happened between both of us?

I appreciate that. It's not just because you're too nice or what, it's just that you deserve someone much better than me.

I can ask from you all the time in the world, but all that I wish now is not to hurt you anymore.

I am sorry.


*crawls into the bed...crying softly hoping that people won't see how hurt I am deeply inside*
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There are sixteen of us. And each of us have our own story of how our friendship starts and what happens along the way.

We've been through thick and thin for almost 5 years now. And the date July 16th 2012 eventually will mark the fifth year we've been through together.

The 'curse'. The dance. The camp. The outings. And here, in Marjon.

Love you girlies to bits!
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Hello peeps.

Yeah, I'm back again. At this hour, I am super not sure of myself what is wrong with me when I am supposed to do my *ehemm2!!* assignments. Dayumn. Had a long skype conversation with my dad a.k.a big boss and my crazy sis, BBM-ing with people..yada..yada..and the list goes on. Except for doing my assignment! For God's sake, will you start your essay today? Please? Damnit. (-.-)"

Anyways, I was flipping through Facebook as always, and there...I saw that video. It reminds me much of home. And I miss home so much. Like seriously missing home. I missed my cousins and my childhood friends who used to come around and play with me, and those who when through thick and thin all the years I spent studying, and all that I'm thinking now is to go back home and ... I don't know. I'll miss the freedom I have here. No rules and regulations. You make your own decision. But, ... I don't know. I missed home. And I haven't been back since September 2010. And to be honest, I've never been so near to home since I was 13. So much for gaining knowledge, eyh?

I felt terrible homesick now. I remembered the feelings when I first came, sitting on the bed in the middle of the room in the middle of the night thinking how much i've missed home. And I do, now. I missed home, so much. And everything about my motherland. Yes, I do.

*cries silently*


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Hello peeps :)

And i'm back again. *uhuk2* cobwebs everywhere! How can you people stand this? Anyways, ignore my wild imagination. It's just me procrastinating from doing my assignment which is due one goddamn week from now! Grrrr~

How was ur Easter break peeps? Oh, sorry. My bad. I completely forgotten that not everyone's enjoying holidays now. LOL. yeah. I had a brilliant *uhuk2* Easter break this year, lounging in the common room with my beloved iPod Touch and my Blackberry, replying BBMs like a boss and do whatever I want except for doing my assignment. Talking about assignments, what is an assignment anyway? *dasar lupa apa itu assignment lepas habis dissertation*

So, what did I do during my Easter break? Well, ... *twiddling my fingers*... I... celebrated my birthday. Haha. Yeap. I had two celebrations this year and both of them are super-awesome-licious!!! Considering I don't have one last year due to Malaysian Festival, *yea, I know (-.-)"* so I had a grand one this year. I still enjoyed it though, although I don't think I get any from my wishlist this year. Whatever. But I still get presents anyway :D
And then, we do nothing. Except for makan-makan and lounging around in the sun. On sunny days, of course. And main bubut-bubut and again, lounging and flicking and tapping my iPod like a boss. And replying to BBMs like I have no life. And that's how I spent my Easter break.

Last but not least, happy belated 23rd birthday to me...*singing to myself*

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Hi peeps.

Suddenly, I feel the urge of writing about HKSBP. What is HKSBP? HKSBP stands for Hari Kecemerlangan Sekolah Berasrama Penuh. Yes, you got that idea. I am the alumnus of a boarding school - SM Sains Miri, to be exact.

We have this tradition of participating in HKSBP every year - it is the most prestigious event in the yearly calendar of every boarding schools. Why? It is the event where your achievements are being awarded, nationally. For more information, you can read about it here.

I was a debater. Yes. I represented my school for the Residential Schools National Level English Camp as well. And I still have the pride of being a school debater, once. Can't believe after years of leaving school, I still have that spirit. Lol.

The fact is, we don't see other boarding schools they way we look up to our school. We see the other schools as our 'rivals', especially during examination period and of course, HKSBP. By stating HKSBP, I don't simply mean debate, although the Prime Minister Trophy Challenge is the main event. We compete against each other in co-curricular activities as well, for example, basketball, wind orchestra, hockey, and et cetera. I don't remember much anymore. I left school in the year 2006. That was about 6 years back. How time flies!

Let's see. In the year 2005, we went against Lahad Datu, Sultan Abdul Halim, Faris Petra, Sekolah Tun Fatimah and Sekolah Datuk Abdul Razak. Sitting in the quarantine room for the four tournaments with the team from Malay College Kuala Kangsar really chills me down to the spine! In the year 2006, we went against Teluk Intan...and yeap, I dont remember the other three teams because we skipped one tournament, I guess. Haha. Can't believe HKSBP marks the end of my debating career in school. Adess.

Lots of memories gained from HKSBP, you know. We made lotsa friends :)) Yea, we can be friends, we can be lovers, but at the same time we can be foes as well! That's how unique our friendship is. Lol. I miss my schooling days. Anyways, to Sainsri Basketball team (yea, SM Sains Miri is the host of HSKBP SQL this year [SQL stands for Borneo Zone, if you're wondering what SQL means]), goodluck! You know you can do it :) Make the school proud, keep our flag flying high!


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