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Olla peeps.

I'm back :) ... *twiddling fingers* ...

Honestly, I can't even remember when was the last time I blogged about something. Time passes and tomorrow I'll be heading home. To the motherlandddd!~ ...*awkward silence*...

I can't be really sure about my feelings at the moment. I'm not even sad, I'm not even excited. As if...I'm not even back for good. Not yet. Of course, u bugger. I'm still here for another friggin' 23 hours and 58 minutes! *scrape2* ...ignore my monologue pls, thank you.

Sometimes, I'm not so sure myself what is really happening to me. Don't get me wrong. I welcome changes in my life for the sake of greater good *chehh!* and for all the good reasons, but there are times I just wonder if I really make the right decision. I don't even know if I really need to make those changes, and thus, wasting mre time when actually there are many things that can be done at the same time. Many a times we will encounter a divergent where we have to make decisions, hoping that it will bring out the best in you, but of course, life is never fair. You made the wrong choice and you failed. You regret the decision made, hoping that you can turn back the time, wishing that you would choose the path you hadn't wish earlier. As much as we hope we could turn back the time, we do realise that time flies without looking back into the past. Even if second chances exist, it's not going to be the same...simply because everything's changed.

I've been regretting so many things in my life as I grew up. Many experience gained and yet I still failed to learn from the past. The ignorance and the hardheaded character has led me to who I am now. Had I not been too ignorant or too stubborn, I would have been a different person today. I didn't blame the hardheaded character that I possess. It's in the blood; I do realise that. Ahh well, how will I ever learn?

Till then, pray may God ease our journey back to Malaysia.

...genuinely comes from my heart and my brain, not from anywhere else unless stated...
2 Responses
  1. Shika Says:

    i knew it!
    grrr...
    juz live it as it is,
    u'll know wad to do when the time comes..


  2. ...and r u mad at me for this uncle?