Tell me, when was the last time you had a water spinach cooked with shrimp paste (kangkung masak belacan)? Does it make your mouth watering right now? Hahaha. It has been a while since the last time I had that dish, and when Beba and I took Amin unintentionally to a continental shop, the shopkeeper said to me...'ada kangkung jual sini...' and straightaway I said to myself, 'I must have a kangkung masak belacan tonight!!!' *roaring evil-ish laughter*


I am a complicated person, yes I am. For a while, I'm with a bunch of friends spending time having cuppa coffee and wander around doing nothing, and a while later, I'm with another bunch of friends who makes me feel very homely. Hahaha. I just love my friends despite who they are. Really guys, I love you all :)

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I just hate this feeling.

I give up.

...

Fine. I've been trying to give up, but each time I tried giving up, it came back. And it starts again. And it goes on and on until up to one level, it's not there anymore. And I hate it.

Why is this happening to me?????

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There are times that I feel that I'm such an idiot. I think that i AM one right now. I just feel like one.

Feeling utterly disappointed just because that your other half's suspecting you for something that you don't do is not the best episode in your relationship soap drama. Yes, it is INDEED a soap drama. You can be soapy at times, and you can hold your ego utterly high when both argues until you won't talk for days. Blergh. I experience that, but I never experience the latter part. It's not that we never argues, it's just that we resort to solutions quite quick. That's what makes me love him even more.

Yet, I just can't stand his suspicion; he thought that I was going out with a friend of mine, who's WAYY YOUNGER THAN ME. Idiot. I just don't know what's in his mind right now. I can't talk to him, I'm just too sad. So i spent the whole day doing whatevers (that's because I can't remember what I was doing the whole day) and Youtube-ing instead of doing my essay, which I had promised myself earlier that I am supposed to finish it by today. Too much of thinking going on right now. Blergh. Bummer.

And, I keep on listening to this song. It doesn't make my day any better, but at least I enjoyed it. Do click on the link to listen to it.

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I have lots and lots of courseworks to be completed in few days time. Completing thousands and thousands of words in a nick of time is equal to committing suicide and referring yourself to a mental hospital. Trust me, you won't like that kind of feeling. I was doing my work these few days, but I don't know why my work hasn't complete yet. Sorry hubby. Not that I am too lazy to do my work, (at least I have started it earlier) but I just don't know why. One of the vital reasons that I can see is procrastination. Moral of the story: Motivate yourself. I know this sounds impossible, but giving it a try is not a sin. Am I right?

Anyways, I've been looking for this one term for quite some time. This is the term when you do something else, for example, Facebook-ing or Youtube-ing while doing your work. Believe me, this really bugs my head until I couldn't concentrate on my work, and suddenly out of nowhere, on my bed in my room at Marjon, today, I got the word! It's OFF-TASKING! It's funny, yes, but it's true. I promise after this I'll continue doing my work. Pinkie promise!

Last Monday and Wednesday, we had a farewell BBQ for Rohan. I think he has landed safely in Mumbai. He'll have a four hours transit before continuing his journey back to Goa. Have a safe trip back home, Rohan. We'll miss you. And your 'Barbie' name. And your pink elephants! I'm gonna miss his presence sooon :(

Anyways, I'm gonna continue doing my work now. Toodles!

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It's lovely to have music accompanying you in everything you do. Music helps to cheer your day, music helps to soothe your uneasiness, and honestly, music is like a part of what I have to have in everyday's life. Without music in a day, it feels incomplete. Trust me, I love music very much. As much as I love make-ups and hairdos :) It's the ladies' nature. Can't blame much. Lols.

It was really solemn. I tried not to listen to any music in these few days, but I can't. I choose to listen few soothing Christian songs instead. I can't listen to those funky ones, the celebration hasn't begun yet. At least, it helps to calm me down. And at times, helps me much in reflecting what I had done in the past few days, and months, and years. And I cried. Forgive me, Jesus.

Music is beautiful/ But when the music stops, all that's left is silence...

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