I admit it; it's my fault. Yupp, from your look, I guess that you hate me by now. Hate me then, if that pleases you. I make you feel sad, I make you feel down. I shun you off whenever you are in need. How pathetic I am. You never talk to me ever since, what more to say looking me in my face. I deserve that. I don't deserve to ask for your apology. Therefore, I won't say 'Will you forgive me?' 'cause I'm afraid I might repeat it again in the future. I've been thinking deeply for few days, but I guess nothing can change your mind. Thank you for doing a lot for me, for all these while. I treasure you most, my bestie. Therefore, in this post I won't mention your name. You know who you are, Yes, you. Like I've said before, you'll remain my bestie even if there's anything happen between us. And nothing can ever change that. You can always count on me, though I feel like you won't trust me any more after this. I luv you babe, and I will always will. For the thousand countless times, once again, I would like to say 'I'm sorry for hurting your feelings...' Honestly, that wasn't my intention. It's my fault for not holding to my words. And it's my fault because I am a kind of 'xda pegangan'. I guess I am. I guess that's it. I hope what's happening between us won't affect our friendship, though I guess I am too late to say so...
Yes, that's what the title says. Get over it. Get over the old feelings. Honestly, I tried to be tough, get over the old feelings but I can't. Those two guys that have been in my life before really gave me a deep blow in my head until each time I think of them, my head feels like it's going to burst anytime. God, what have I done? I miss both of you. You are great pals to me. And nothing can ever replace our friendship. :(
Z and I met during our sophomore years, I guess. X and I met at one camp. Those two guys, Z and X never know each other. Why, of course they don't because they are not in the same school, not even stayed in thesame region of Sarawak. But to me, both of them are the greatest guy best friends I once ever had. Only if that misunderstandings did not occur, we would not have been separated far like this...
Z's now studying far abroad, opposite with me. X's still in Sarawak. I guess X would have hated me by now. I once pretended that this might be the karma for him; he used to be a playboy before. I would never expected that our relationship once meant to be more than friends. Guess everything's over by now. Z? I would rather keep the story to myself. We both were hurt by that time, but I guess he's happy now. And I'm happy for him though I felt a bit hurt inside. Why? Again, maybe it's because of the old feelings.
I wish to get rid of these old feelings. Why? I want to be 100% perfect for him. For my beloved hubby. Of course people are not 100%, but at least why don't give it a try, right?
"Al, ku mcm mok g town
mok join x?"
A message in the skype. Beba cam tauk2 jak. Hahaha. Apa lagik? *evil smile*
Since I am still out of idea of how to susun my sentence, better I take a break and go out. Hahhaa! Till my next entry, daa!~~
This is the product of my 'itchy' hand. ARRRGHHHH!!!!!! Now, I lost connections to some of the fellow bloggers who are my coursemates, my fella juniors, and even my schoolmates! Now I have to do it all over again. Duhh =.=' Arse holes! Guess have to arrange back my beluggie after I'm done with all my assignments =.='
p/s: to protect the identity of X, I shall vary the language in this entry. So if pening2 kapala read my entry because of the variety of language, don't blame me for I am applying my multi-language skill here. 1 Malaysia! hahah~~
運賃はあなたも私の友人は、無知のためのあなたの友人の最高の私たちを遠ざけるしています.
Jy weet nooit die ware betekenis agter die vriendskap, alles wat jy weet, is hoe om te lewe in jou eie wêreld. Daarom is dit beter vir jou om te lewe op jou eie eerder as om ons aan u kant.
我希望在此您将学会欣赏你周围的人。并不是说我们不珍惜友谊，但更宝贵的教训教你一对。
وانا آسف لفعل هذا لكم ، ولكن من أجل الخير الخاص أفضل الخاصة. الناس ليست مثالية ، فهي ليست الله. يجب عليك أن تدرك ذلك
hindi ko gusto sabihin 'narapat ka'. Matapat, ako awa mo. Subalit hindi mo maintindihan sa amin. Huwag sisihin sa amin para sa paggawa ng ito sa iyo.
Ukai peneka ati kami ka ngaga nuan baka tu, tang nuan ka maksa kami. Kami udah cukup btrima kasih bulih kaban baka nuan, tulung anang ngaga kami bakanyak agi.
Fare ye well, my friend... :(
